Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day – Remembering the ones we lose…

In 1988, President Ronald Reagan designated the month of October as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. However, PAILRD was first observed much later. In 2002, it was held by 20 states. Since 2006, it has been proclaimed annually by all 50 states, with 8 states adopting permanent proclamation.

(https://www.awarenessdays.com/us/awareness-days-calendar/pregnancy-and-infant-loss-remembrance-day-2018/)

On October 16, 2009 we lost our son Tommy at birth. He was alive six (6) hours earlier and his death left us with heavy hearts mourning his passing. Had it not been for a loving church family, I am not sure we would have recovered with such strength as we did.

Every year we take a day or weekend off for a long drive to a remote quiet place where we can remember our son Tommy and celebrate his life, however short. Our life commitment is to remember him. This year we will take a drive to a remote lake in Northern Idaho.

In remembering the ones we lose, we honor their life and in their passing celebrate the time we spent together.

Memorial Video – Remembering Judah

I keep telling myself, as each week passes it will get easier, but that’s just a lie!

Every day that passes I feel the pain. My mind plays back the video of my little boy from birth, and the thousands of moments as images of his life, racing through my mind.

I didn’t stop to record those images on paper or digitally, but they are burned in my mind. Every day I see new ones to remind me of his life as he grew up, so many of the things we did together. Then I remember so many things I missed.

On my visits with Judah as an adult suffering with his daemons, at times our visits were normal encouraging moments, however, most were spent listening to him babbling about things that made no sense at all. I am searching for both, a way to honor Judah, and healing from the pain of his loss.

Time is not my friend. I’m afraid it will never stop the hurt. I don’t want to stop my powerful recall of the pleasant memories of him, but the more recent struggles leading to his passing are equally powerful and ever present memories, I am torn between them.

I pray God, for your mercy and strength, to guide my mind and heal my painful memories and help me to use them for good and to help others like Judah who are still here suffering. Guide me oh Lord!

Below is the video I played at his memorial. I am still slowly working on producing a video of the service held on Friday, August 3rd, 2018. It was exactly one month following his death. I want to thank all those who came to pay their respect and share the love they experienced with Judah. It meant a lot to you but even more to me, his father. I also thank Pastor Thomas Kidd and Pastor Mark, for sharing their kind words and providing spiritual strength.

More to share in the coming days…but for now just remembering!

 

 

 

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Obituary for my son Judah

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Judah Corsini – January 7, 1986 – July 3, 2018

Judah was born at home in Tacoma, WA, delivered by a midwife and his father, and was a sweet boy with a good spirit. So sweet and caring that he quickly earned the nickname of “Sugarman.”

At age 15, Judah came to live with his father and step-mother, at which point his education finally took hold in a public high school.

Judah proved his potential to excel, eventually finding his own way through being admitted to Western Washington University. He was extremely self-driven with high intelligence and had many life goals. Along with his self-drive for a good education, Judah was also trained in several construction trades by his father, in which, Judah had mastered painting and landscaping. “God blessed the work of his hands”, his father stated, and is proud of his accomplishments.

When Judah was a few semesters from completing his BA, he began to suffer from mental illness and drug abuse. Even amid Judah’s condition, his friends will tell you he was a loving, caring and a fun person to be around.

Judah was preceded in death by his little brother “Tommy” in 2009, Grandpa Len (Amy’s father) in 2010, and Grandma Evy in 2013. He is survived by many other family members: his parents G. Tomas Sr. and Amy Corsini, Grandma Jan, his biological mother Laurieann, and five other siblings from mixed families: Danielle Corsini, Julia Corsini-Ortiz, Malachi Corsini, Sharayah Rose Beattie, and Selah Corsini; as well as many aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces and nephews.

My son Judah suffered from mental illness and brokenness of spirit and a tormented mind. We believe he is in a better place, and both his mind and spirit are finally at peace. A celebration of life will be held on August 3, 2018, 10:00 a.m., at St. Luke’s Lutheran Church, 3030 Bellevue Way NE, Bellevue, WA 98004.

Chocolate Champagne Gala 2018

On 4/21/18 I attended the Lutheran Community Service North West Fundraiser, to capture images and video. I am including a link to some images. My goal is to produce a video short story of the event and what it supports.
https://corsiniproductions.smugmug.com/Videography/Chocolate-Champagne-Gala/
The C&C Gala is a benefit for the Sexual Assault & Family Trauma (SAFeT) Response Center, a vital program of Lutheran Community Services Northwest. The SAFeT Response Center serves individuals and families affected by sexual assault, child sexual abuse, homicide, crimes and other traumatic, life-altering events. SAFeT provides: a 24/7 Sexual Assault and Crime Victims Crisis Line, Clinical Services, Victim Advocacy and Support Services, Anti-Human Trafficking awareness and advocacy work, and Education and Prevention Services.

Morning Prayer March 5, 2018

My prayer for the day…
Thank you Lord for another day to be a friend and husband to my sweet bride! I ask a special blessing on Amy today, that she might know your presence and feel your Spirit’s comfort in her daily journey. Thank you for her and our Selah, my cup is full of blessings.

Although you are ever present with me and you are my shelter, I pray for a home my family can call our own, invite family, friends and strangers to visit.

I pray you bless me with the eyes to see the needs around me and to hear your voice leading me.

Thank you Lord for my job and the ability to pay our bills. I ask for an increase in the work and opportunity to tell others’ stories in digital media, my passion.

Thank you for the opportunities around me to educate myself and grow in knowledge.
Help me to use what I learn to help my family, my friends and all those I meet.

Lord, guide me with your Spirit, I pray. Let your light in me lead those in darkness, to a way out of confusion.
Increase my faith Lord and please forgive me when I doubt.
Let my heart and conscience bear witness of my desire, to bring honor and glory to your name….in all that I do and say…..in all I do and say…..to bring honor and glory to your name. Help these words to echo in my mind, my spirit, and as I breathe the air you give.

Help me to walk with your full armor encompassed around me, my family and all those in my life.
I pray for mercy and comfort for all those who are hurting this day, the hungry, sick, the lonely, those who are in prison, those who are dying and those who are afraid.
Thank you Jesus, for my life! In Jesus’ name Amen.

~webholyman

Celebrating my sister Lucy…

This past Saturday I had the blessing and opportunity to craft Lucy’s life celebration using stills I scanned and produced in a video for her wonderful daughter Mary. I also recorded the service and reception following, which I will produce and publish at a later date. Thank you Lord for my dear sister Lucy, the life she lived, the volunteer work she did so faithfully and her kindness and constant smile.

Lucy Gregg’s Life Celebration

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